The Quiet Pool

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The Quiet Pool

I had come to the quiet pool, the adults-only pool between buildings two and three, that morning to give the husband a quiet room. It was Wednesday in Princeville and the husband was preparing for a meeting on Friday in Vancouver, and instead of interrupting his Slack conversations and fussing with newspapers collected at airport lounges, I thought it would be smart to leave him alone.

I can only offer so much coffee before politeness turns either edgy or desperate. Besides, I needed to catch up on my notes of the trip. So, I dropped the room key, sunscreen, Tylenol, water bottle, the book I was reading (The Violent Bear It Away by Flannery O’Connor) and my notebook into a bag, took a dry beach towel, said I’d be in back in an hour and left.

Quiet pools are set aside, as I have learned, for people who seek minimal external disturbances: no Bluetooth speakers, no belly-flopping toddlers, nothing rowdy or unexpected to break the poolside equilibrium. You see middle-aged couples in black shorts and t-shirts with TOMS under their chairs, an angular twenty-something guy with earbuds, a trio of women who step down into the pool and kick up their feet to a ledge and float on their backs as bikini-covered crosses. The loungers are clicked to the most upright position and most books are hard-cover. The pool water appears heavy, as if it too is asking not to be disturbed. These are the pools where married adults go to simultaneously prevent an argument and get a tan.

Except for two women meditating ($17 for a one-hour guided meditation session with a choice of essential oils), I was the only one at the quiet pool that morning.

CN Tower

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CN Tower, Toronto

I took this photograph two days before the shootings on the Danforth. When you exit our friend’s condo in Toronto, where we were visiting for the weekend, and look left, the CN Tower is there, tall and unmoving and slightly space-agey. We used the tower as a point of reference as we walked through the sidewalk patios of King Street and got turned around inside St. Lawrence Market with our St. Urbain bagel; for a few days in a big busy city, the CN Tower reassured me of a comfortable, barefoot dinner with my husband and our friend.

The shootings happened in the kind of Toronto neighborhood our friend made sure we saw, the kind of neighborhood we could have randomly chosen for its brunch spot or summer festival. But we didn’t, and fortunately for us, the shootings happened about thirty minutes after we landed in Vancouver, a distance of mountain ranges and time zones that is shorter this morning.

Somehow, I continue to believe that random shootings implies infrequency, implies another city or country, implies people I don’t know and places where I am not, when, in fact, as every shooting proves, randomness is today and at the store where we buy bananas and while I ask the husband if anything on the menu looks good. Randomness is close. Its odds are improving. At this moment, a tourist in town for a few days is standing at the corner of Yonge and Esplanade to take this picture of the CN Tower, and I wonder what they see.

QOTD 19.2.18

“Be a good steward of your gifts. Protect your time. Feed your inner life. Avoid too much noise. Read good books, have good sentences in your ears. Be by yourself as often as you can. Walk. Take the phone off the hook. Work regular hours.” 

-Jane Kenyon

Reading Note 13.2.18

This weekend, I started reading Feel Free, the new collection of essays by Zadie Smith (it’s great), and “Generation Why?,” a 2010 piece from the New York Review of Books, was the first one I read. Despite written eight years ago, the essay – and its two statements below – was useful for my current dilemma concerning Facebook: Should I stay or should I go?

“When a human becomes a set of data on Facebook, he or she is reduced. Everything shrinks. Individual character. Friendships. Language. Sensibility. In a way it’s a transcendent experience: we lose our bodies, our messy feelings, our desires, our fears.”

“It feels important to remind ourselves, at this point, that Facebook,…was designed by a Harvard sophomore with a Harvard sophomore’s preoccupations.”

http://www.nybooks.com/articles/2010/11/25/generation-why/